This quarantine has me feeling some type of way, but I can't explain the way.
In one breath, I sadly feel like I have been training for something like this. I spend sooooo much time at home, and usually my weekends are spent home trying to relax and quell my fucking anxiety anyway. When I found out this was going to have to be a serious quarantining, self isolation situation for two weeks (now more), I wasn't concerned. Well, of course I was concerned for the well-being of the general public and those susceptible to the virus, but not concerned for me isolating.
I still remain the same. Concerned as shit for the well-being of our nation and the people in my community. Of course, number one being my father and the rest of my family. Not as concerned about my isolation or quarantine.
That being said, this quarantine is making me feel a few things. Mostly, I am feeling the need to just sit here and eat myself out of house and home (ew, that sounds weird, but you get it), but also to mitigate my stress (which I normally do anyway). It took me three full weeks of quarantine though to realize that I should get my shit in gear and maybe start to do more than watch shows and movies. Although, that's an accomplishment for me. Normally, I don't watch things - and it gets me into trouble in social situations. I know absolutely nothing about actors, actresses, movies, etc.
I am excited to share a few things with you that I look forward to accomplishing this week. Hopefully, this can maybe inspire you to get things done and share in it with me. Why not, right? Let's make the best we possibly can out of this, while staying safe, responsible and healthy.
//WORKOUT or MOVE MY BODY
I have to be honest. I haven't been working out religiously like I should be. If I'm even more honest, I have not really said I wanted to workout during the quarantine once, until this past week. I have to. I have no choice, it's getting bad. I am not respecting my body and it's all I have, and it's mine! I have to start respecting it. How sick is it that I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself and every single day it seems to get worse? There's really no other way to explain it, but hopefully you understand.
That being said, I am dedicating myself to three workouts this week. Yes. I've said it. It's happening. Nothing more to be said about it (because if I say anything else, I may ruin it for me).
*Just because I can't leave it alone, I would like to mention that for the past 5 days, I've worked out 4 of them. The one day I didn't was yesterday (Easter).
//START TWO POSTS
I want to post two times if I am being honest, but I am setting the goal to "starting two posts" because I just don't know these days. I have so many ideas. Guys, sooooo many. My mine is constantly racing about things I can write about, which doesn't surprise me. What DOES surprise me is how I am just simply NOT writing them. It actually pisses me off.
Stress is one hell of a drug folks. One hell of a drug that will stop you from doing the things you absolutely love.
Missing my family has been one of the hardest things during this quarantine. I felt it fucking HARD on Easter. When I couldn't have my classic, traditional Easter weekend with my family - it felt like everything was pulled from under me. COVID sucks, but it's just scratching the surface of my stress. my stress relief is usually seeing my family, especially on holidays. With COVID, I couldn't and my heart just felt broken.
//FINISH TWO BOOKS
I have started The Flatshare by Beth O'Leary and I want to finish it! It's as simple as that. I've also started In Five Years by Rebecca Serle and guess what? I want to finish that too! Yes, you've heard it here first. I've been audiobooking a bit more lately and I've got In Five Years on audiobook. It says it's a little over six hours which I can probably read on double speed because I LOATHE how slow the normal speed is. It will take me three hours maybe a little more?
I think I'm going to stop there for this week. I have had overwhelming stress and pressure on me lately (more on this later - if I get the guts to post about it just yet). I don't want to push anything on myself because I have learned that sometimes, you just have to take your time.
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