I cannot believe that it is Fourth of July weekend, 2020 already. It actually amazes me how fast this year is flying by - but at the same time, how slow it seems. Because we have had so much hurt in this world this year, it can feel both ways at any time when you really think about it; slow and fast.
Sara officially asked me to be her bridesmaid! I am so thrilled for her. She is so important to me and I cannot wait to celebrate her and her wedding. I am going to try on dresses with her over the weekend of July 17th and it's going to be so great. She is getting married in October. I love you JUNKSTER!
The weather this weekend is super hot so far. Today was a day off of work because it was in observance of July 4th (even though today is 7/3) and it just felt nice to be off from meetings for the day. You know how the work of a social media manager goes - social media never sleeps - so there was of course still some things that had to happen today, and of course they did!
I came down to my dads house yesterday. I can't tell you how good it feels to be here. Ally came over on Wednesday night and we had a fucking great time. It felt so good to just be with my best friend, drinking wine, doing face masks - ugh there's just no better feeling. We ordered Thai food and just hung out. We went to T.J. Maxx (of course with masks, social distancing and I think 50% capacity) and bought a bunch of shit we didn't need. I can't tell you how good it felt. We laughed our asses off and just generally had a wonderful time.
Ally is my best friend, but really she's my sister. Whenever I spend time with her - I know it's the best time I can possibly have. There's such a special spot for her in my life always. I do feel like I'm always my most vulnerable self with her because I just feel like she listens, she always cares, and she will reach down into the depths of my soul to make sure I am okay when it seems like I am not. That's a feeling that has kept me alive some days - all jokes aside.
Thursday morning, she drove me down to my dads from my apartment. My dad had originally planned to come up and get me on Friday morning and bring me down - but Ally had some work in a town that was half way between my apartment and my dads house, so she brought me all the way down there. We had lunch and that's about it because I had a ton of calls to be on for work. It was super sad to see her go but she had a meeting as well that she needed to be at.
Today was another great day, it felt so fulfilling. I woke up late, but it felt so good to sleep. I needed it. I ran downstairs when I finally woke up and honestly, ate a slice of pizza for breakfast with a cup of coffee. I will take no judgements. I had a Target return to make so I brought it back, and then stopped in Homegoods and Michaels. Michaels had me shook to be honest - they had 70% off faux florals - which I actually needed for a project that I hope to share with you soon.
I met up with sis Angie and we went to Trader Joe's to grab ingredients for the epic charcuterie boards that we plan to make tomorrow for Fourth of July. I fucking love Angela so much it hurts, We have been friends since we were 16 and 17 and we are both 29 and 30. We set our parents up and they have been dating ever since. They are about to be married - we are sisters, we are fucking happy.
Cannot wait to share photos of this charcuterie board with you. Make sure you are following me on Instagram because IG will definitely see it first. When Ang and I are together we just have such a great time. We also went out in search of High Noon's which we were happy to find at the first place we called/looked - so we were stoked about that. We're excited to have a great day tomorrow.
Ended the day having food from Rainbow Diner for dinner (best diner in OC, NJ - no questions please). I had a Turkey Club and was seriously craving it for some reason - couldn't explain why. We ate together as a fam: my dad, Terri, Ang and Anthony (we were missing Ben), but it felt so good. It felt like I was really where I needed to be.
At the end of the night, I needed to do some more work - so I came inside and got it done. After that, I went downstairs to find my dad watching Midsommar (the freakiest fucking movie on this planet that I jokingly started watching with him earlier in the day). We finished watching the movie together and then headed upstairs to bed.
Now? I lay here in my bed eating gummy candy. Should I be eating this right now? No. Is it helping to quell the underlying anxiety that I have? Absolutely. Should I rely on food and sugar at 11pm to aide me in this? Absolutely not. I know.
Generally this week I think I did pretty well. I started each morning with a hopeful state of mind - the anxiety was still there. I went to bed a couple nights not skipping my skincare routine - which is so important to me. It feels really good when your face is watched and your oils, serums and toners are on. It was a big step for me to do it at least three nights. Skincare is something I love so much - but wasn't doing it because I didn't value my self enough to get up from bed and go to the bathroom to invest the time in myself and life. This week - I think it did it 3 nights. Huge step for me. Can't wait to get it done every night - I'll take the small win for now.
How was your week?
